The Urbanskis (our next door neighbors) took us all on an adventure to the La Brea Tar Pits. I learned a lot at this fascinating place that i have not visited since I was little. In the middle of Los Angeles, in fact, right on miracle mile, asphalt still bubbles up from the ground. Archeologists are working, even now, to extract fossils from the sticky black substance. Mammoths, mastodons, horses, Sabre-toothed cats, and direwolves all roamed the area long before concrete came around.
Like pulling the sword from the stone, try to lift the metal poles from Tar and see what the animals were facing.
Dire wolf skulls:
Nearby art at LACMA
Then we explored the current Tar Pits.
what a fun and interesting day!
Posted in adventure, Daily baby O2, Jacob stories, Parenting
Tagged animals, asphalt, California, educational, extinct, fossils, Friends, friends with kids, ice age, jackson, jacob, la, La Brea, los angeles, mammoth, mastodon, miracle mile, museum, SoCal, Tar, Tar Pits, things to do, Urbanskis
I’m struggling this Christmas.
I want to make it magical for my kids–because my Christmases growing up were magical–but those memories make me sad. I can’t help but think back on Christmas Eves snuggled next to my mom and little brother reading The Polar Express. I remember the feeling of being awoken by Riley on Christmas morning, letting me know that Santa had come. Or both Riley and I being awoken by our dad (we were great sleepers). Of climbing excitedly into my parents’ bed and waiting while one of them went downstairs to start the coffee. As I think about how I can make my boys’ Christmas as exciting and wonder-filled, I can’t help but stumble, again and again, on the deep dark hole of my own loss.
My brother. My co-pilot on the journey of childhood.
Even tonight, I realized I was looking forward to spending time with my brother, the adult, and only then did I remember that I wouldn’t be seeing him. Not on Christmas, or anywhere else in my life on Earth. I try to tell myself that at least i know he is safe…but even knowing where he is doesn’t make my own grief feel any better. I feel loss so acutely. It’s like a hot ember I hold in my hand. I am shielding it from the world because it’s private, it’s mine; also because I don’t know who would understand, or who to talk to who isn’t tired of hearing about it. Even if I knew who to talk to, I don’t have any more words to say.
I’m just so sad.
That’s all that comes to mind, over and over.
So I sit here, drowning quietly in my grief, watching time pass so quickly with my kids, trying to give them a glimpse of an experience that is so out of reach for me now, for so many reasons.
Posted in family, Milestones
Tagged 6, Birthday, cute, experience, fun, games, grammie, jacob, love, ot, Pacific Park, pier, prizes, rides, Santa Monica, six, special, time
From the first moment I laid eyes on you, I knew you were special. No one has ever made me smile as wide as you do. From your cute laugh, your dimples, and your sweet, scratchy voice, to your dancing bootie, you are a unique and wonderful masterpiece. You are kind, caring, smart, and just all around amazing. I am so proud of you.
Watch Jacob’s sixth year slideshow here:
Posted in Milestones
Tagged beautiful, Birthday, boy, funny, growing up, jacob, love, memories, pictures, six, six years old, slideshow, smile, special, video
On Friday, we were treated to some seasonal songs by the Kindergarteners, first- and second-graders at Jacob’s school. It was just adorable! Jacob scanned the audience for us, and when he saw me, Grammie, Daddy and Jackie, his face lit up and he was all dimples. 🙂
If the video above doesn’t load, here are two smaller clips:
Posted in christmas, Jacob stories, school
Tagged adorable, Christmas, cute, elementary, funny, jacob, kindergarten, love, music, nohl canyon, program, school, singing, songs
“I love Christmas” Jacob said. “I love lights and beanstalks and presents!”
“Yeah! We hang them here” he gestures to the mantle “and Santa fills them!”