Category Archives: brother

A weekend in Big Bear

I‘ve just uploaded a movie to YouTube! You can check it out here:

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You will not drown

I think I always believed that Christians were happier because their lives were better. This made me angry. It made me jealous. They seemed self-righteous to me, and like everything was going great for them all of the time. I … Continue reading

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Grief at Christmas

I’m struggling this Christmas. I want to make it magical for my kids–because my Christmases growing up were magical–but those memories make me sad. I can’t help but think back on Christmas Eves snuggled next to my mom and little … Continue reading

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30 years ago today 

30 years ago today my brother was born.  I should be celebrating with you today, Riley. You didn’t live long enough to turn 30. I know that birthdays are irrelevant to you now, but I hope you know how we … Continue reading

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Every time I hear this song I think of my brother.  “I see you dressed in white, all of your wrongs made right.”

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Happy New Year

We wore our pajamas and watched last year’s ball drop on YouTube.  We watched the third Harry Potter movie… And toasted with sparkle “spear” as Jacob calls it.  Jackson learned to toast and loved it!  A new year… I can’t … Continue reading

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Faith after the death of my brother

This is going to be a tough post to write.  My faith has high and low moments these days. At times, I am confident it’s the only thing getting me through, and then I stumble upon this.  I’m working on … Continue reading

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Grief Letter

I have been attending Grief Share and was encouraged to write a grief letter so that people who care about me will know how I am doing, what to expect from me, and how to help. I am going to … Continue reading

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How are you doing?

It has been five months, 21 days and about 13 hours since I received the worst phone call of my life. What everyone wants to know is how I am doing. What everyone wants to hear is that I am … Continue reading

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Happy birthday, sweet brother

I wanted to be the first to wish you a happy birthday. I wish you were here to turn 29. I am having a really hard time with this birthday of yours. Suddenly I am drowning again. I am sick, … Continue reading

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