Category Archives: Addiction

Happy New Year

We wore our pajamas and watched last year’s ball drop on YouTube.  We watched the third Harry Potter movie… And toasted with sparkle “spear” as Jacob calls it.  Jackson learned to toast and loved it!  A new year… I can’t … Continue reading

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Faith after the death of my brother

This is going to be a tough post to write.  My faith has high and low moments these days. At times, I am confident it’s the only thing getting me through, and then I stumble upon this.  I’m working on … Continue reading

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Grief Letter

I have been attending Grief Share and was encouraged to write a grief letter so that people who care about me will know how I am doing, what to expect from me, and how to help. I am going to … Continue reading

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How are you doing?

It has been five months, 21 days and about 13 hours since I received the worst phone call of my life. What everyone wants to know is how I am doing. What everyone wants to hear is that I am … Continue reading

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Happy birthday, sweet brother

I wanted to be the first to wish you a happy birthday. I wish you were here to turn 29. I am having a really hard time with this birthday of yours. Suddenly I am drowning again. I am sick, … Continue reading

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Riley Day

We celebrated Riley’s life with the things he loved best: family, friends, chipotle, Chevelles, and Chuck E Cheese (okay, he didn’t love chuck E Cheese BEST, at least not as an adult). It was a hard day, but we were … Continue reading

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Happy birthday, sweet brother

I wanted to be the first to wish you a happy birthday. I wish you were here to turn 29. I am having a really hard time with this birthday of yours. Suddenly I am drowning again. I am sick, … Continue reading

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Keep us in your prayers 

June is a big month for the award family. It’s everyone’s birthday…mine, my dad, my cousin, grandma, mom, and brother. It is also Josh’s dad’s birthday and some family friends. It’s also Father’s Day and many years have held graduations. … Continue reading

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Tonight

Tonight I sat on the top of a hill and stared out at the vast expanse below me. I saw county buses, rooftops, fields, and streets. I watched dark, stormy clouds roll in and lay thick and hazy over the … Continue reading

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Jacob and the butterfly

Jacob made me cry pretty hard today.  A while back, my mom told Jacob that when you see a butterfly, it’s someone from heaven trying to say hello. Today as we got out of the truck after school a huge … Continue reading

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