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Grief at Christmas
I’m struggling this Christmas. I want to make it magical for my kids–because my Christmases growing up were magical–but those memories make me sad. I can’t help but think back on Christmas Eves snuggled next to my mom and little … Continue reading
30 years ago today
30 years ago today my brother was born. I should be celebrating with you today, Riley. You didn’t live long enough to turn 30. I know that birthdays are irrelevant to you now, but I hope you know how we … Continue reading
Faith after the death of my brother
This is going to be a tough post to write. My faith has high and low moments these days. At times, I am confident it’s the only thing getting me through, and then I stumble upon this. I’m working on … Continue reading
Grief Letter
I have been attending Grief Share and was encouraged to write a grief letter so that people who care about me will know how I am doing, what to expect from me, and how to help. I am going to … Continue reading
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Happy birthday, sweet brother
I wanted to be the first to wish you a happy birthday. I wish you were here to turn 29. I am having a really hard time with this birthday of yours. Suddenly I am drowning again. I am sick, … Continue reading
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Tagged Birthday, brother, first, grief, hard, loss, milestones
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Riley Day
We celebrated Riley’s life with the things he loved best: family, friends, chipotle, Chevelles, and Chuck E Cheese (okay, he didn’t love chuck E Cheese BEST, at least not as an adult). It was a hard day, but we were … Continue reading
Eulogy for my Brother
Death is so final. We hear this often, but I don’t know if we can understand, truly, what it means until it happens. It is the end of so much here on earth. Ritual, familiarity, sensory experiences, and traditions, can … Continue reading
Happy birthday, sweet brother
I wanted to be the first to wish you a happy birthday. I wish you were here to turn 29. I am having a really hard time with this birthday of yours. Suddenly I am drowning again. I am sick, … Continue reading
Keep us in your prayers
June is a big month for the award family. It’s everyone’s birthday…mine, my dad, my cousin, grandma, mom, and brother. It is also Josh’s dad’s birthday and some family friends. It’s also Father’s Day and many years have held graduations. … Continue reading
Tonight
Tonight I sat on the top of a hill and stared out at the vast expanse below me. I saw county buses, rooftops, fields, and streets. I watched dark, stormy clouds roll in and lay thick and hazy over the … Continue reading
Josh and Korey 