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Priceless 

Every time I hear this song I think of my brother.  “I see you dressed in white, all of your wrongs made right.” Advertisements

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Faith after the death of my brother

This is going to be a tough post to write.  My faith has high and low moments these days. At times, I am confident it’s the only thing getting me through, and then I stumble upon this.  I’m working on … Continue reading

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Grief Letter

I have been attending Grief Share and was encouraged to write a grief letter so that people who care about me will know how I am doing, what to expect from me, and how to help. I am going to … Continue reading

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How are you doing?

It has been five months, 21 days and about 13 hours since I received the worst phone call of my life. What everyone wants to know is how I am doing. What everyone wants to hear is that I am … Continue reading

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Riley Day

We celebrated Riley’s life with the things he loved best: family, friends, chipotle, Chevelles, and Chuck E Cheese (okay, he didn’t love chuck E Cheese BEST, at least not as an adult). It was a hard day, but we were … Continue reading

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Eulogy for my Brother

Death is so final. We hear this often, but I don’t know if we can understand, truly, what it means until it happens. It is the end of so much here on earth. Ritual, familiarity, sensory experiences, and traditions, can … Continue reading

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Tonight

Tonight I sat on the top of a hill and stared out at the vast expanse below me. I saw county buses, rooftops, fields, and streets. I watched dark, stormy clouds roll in and lay thick and hazy over the … Continue reading

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60 seconds

I have days that are harder than others. Today, for example, is a hard day. While most days pass without tears, today I have felt like crying since the morning. Some of you, like my husband, will want to know … Continue reading

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How this feels

there are no words for how this feels, truly, but as words are kind of who I am, I have to try.  How this feels Devastating. I can’t explain the feeling any better. So heartbreaking that, at times, it’s physically … Continue reading

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Dear brother

Why did you do this to us? We are so broken. I’m starting to doubt that it could be possible that I live in a world without you in it. My heart breaks over and over as I think about … Continue reading

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