I planted seeds in some old plastic pots. They started to break the surface, so it was time to plant. I had to photograph how amazing the root system was on the green beans. Seen below, I planted chives, corn, and green bean seeds. I watered them for two weeks and voila! Roots that filled the pots and came out the drainage holes at the bottom. Isn’t that just amazing?!
Purple: Red carpet manicure color “9 Inch Heels”
Fine glitter by Gelish
Multicolor glitter by OPI (not gel)
So Jacob is on some sort of nap strike.
It stinks. He ends up really grumpy and unpleasant. I have been trying everything. Well I pulled out all the stops on Thursday. Since he couldn’t sleep I committed myself to what would be at least an hour bike ride, figuring he must fall asleep in the bike trailer. We rode to Armstrong nursery in Old Town Tustin. It was a good ride; there were two bike trails I could stay on to avoid traffic (actually one is an on-sidewalk bike lane) and it was a beautiful day. It took 45 minutes to get there, and he never fell asleep. We saw his friend Wesley there with his parents so we went inside and the boys ran around. Now, I thought, he is certain to fall right asleep.
Wrong.
He didn’t nap on the whole 1.5 hour journey. 😦 why? Why?!?
This is a loose paraphrase from the service yesterday, but Rick Warren said something that I want to remember:
When our children cry, the first thing we say is “don’t cry!” As though crying is the worst thing that could ever happen to them. It’s not. Not feeling loved is the worst thing that could happen to a child. Don’t teach them to stuff their emotions.
This is profound. When we are uncomfortable with other people’s emotions, we want to “make it better,” but it is an important process. If you need to cry, cry. We were designed to. It’s how we get through.
Last week on We Care Wednesday we went to the fair. It was very crowded! Jacob loved the animals, so that was worth it. He learned to moo like a cow!
He also said “mmmmm!” Very loudly when we reached the food booths! Sorry, buddy. No turkey leg for you.
I love how jacob sleeps. He gets really hot and sweaty and moves all around. Of course he looks like an angel no matter what he does. 🙂
Three years ago today, Josh and I were at the river. Then he disappeared, and the next few hours would be some of my worst.
Over time, the raw spot that was aching after this accident has begun to heal. It is a small spot now. I no longer wonder about the “how” part (how did it happen?); I have evolved, but I still question “why”? I know it’s common for people, after a tragedy, to ask why this terrible thing happened to them. That is not what I am asking. I ask why this wonderful miracle happened to us. Why are we so lucky? Why was he saved? I struggle with the feelings of deservedness. Do I deserve this beautiful life I live? What makes me deserving of it, while others are not?
I know it is not my job to know, but knowing has always brought me such comfort. I like to know everything I can, about…anything. A lifetime of pushing this around in my mind could be miserable, so I am trying to focus on feelings of gratefulness and letting those feelings flood out any others.
I
am
grateful.
Josh and Korey 